I’ve been thinking about dropping my Yoga class because my instructor is a self-centered, way-too-advanced, not-a-very-good teacher who seems to be threatened by me for some reason. The past few classes have sucked and half of our class is pissed at her. I skipped class on Monday because I was so irritated by her and didn’t know how to deal with it yet. I found out yesterday that they had a substitute teacher on Monday and he rocked! Sorry I missed it!

I went to class yesterday with an open mind and a clear aura. I have my mental techniques for dealing with obnoxious people like my instructor so I put those to good use. At the same time, I tried to figure out if she is indeed bothered by me or if I’m just being overly sensative. After 10 minutes of class, I quickly decided that yes, she is bothered by me. I’m not super flexible, believe me. I’ve got loads of back, neck, shoulder, weight problems that prevent me from being a Yoga Guru (not to mention I’ve only been doing yoga for about 6 months!). I think she’s threatened by my personality. She shoots me down every time she asks something of the class and I’m the only one who speaks up and answers her. I think she really got pissed several weeks ago when she was introducing some back twists to stretch out the back muscles. She hadn’t yet clarified that she would be teaching us these back twists that day but she started off the class by asking, “What do you do when you experience back pain deep in your muscles and spine?” Nobody said anything. Everyone just started at her blankly. After a couple moments of silence, I blurted out the truth, “Rush to my Chiropractor for an adjustment!” She clearly did not appreciate my answer so she did her best to ignore it. Whatever. I don’t care. I ‘m there to help strengthen my back and shoulders and to find awareness in my own body and mind.

So, anyway, I’ve been thinking about dropping the class (without a refund). I went to class last night and after one new back bend, she moved us into a different room (actually, it was the art museum section of the community college) with dim track lighting and soft, meditation music over a sound system. I had a great meditation. She tries to guide us through meditation with her voice but it’s all scattered and incomplete, so I’ve learned to just sort of block her voice out - which is much easier to do with nice music playing in the background! After the meditation she asked us what we all thought of the new room and if we thought the music was too loud. Again, nobody said anything. So I said I liked the new room, it was a little cold (”BRING A BLANKET!” she said) and I didn’t think the music wasn’t too loud at all. Finally, someone said, “I couldn’t really hear you, though” (meaning the instructor). She agreed and decided to turn the music down next time. Hahah. Oh well. Again, whatever.

I’ve decided that I can certainly handle 4 more weeks of her class now that we’ll be doing the poses and the meditation in this new gentle room with music. I get a good energy being surrounded by the art on the walls in that room. With that and the musical energy, I can surely block her negative energy out of my aura for 8 more classes, eh?

I came home and started browsing on Amazon.com for some meditation CDs to use at home. I have a couple but they are more guided meditation that focus on magick work. What I’m looking for is more musical, relaxing, general. The song played last night in class was soothing and had tweeting birdies in the background. I liked that. But in my searching on amazon, I got lost! There are so many to choose from and some of the samples I heard I didn’t really care for.

Again, I’m asking you, dear reader(s), if you can recommend any good meditation CDs?