Honey’s Uncle is a nurse so I scanned and sent him the final pathology report of the biopsy. He translated it for us and it just helped us understand it better. Basically, the report says that there are cancerous cells on the liver and there are also healthy, functioning cells in the liver. The pathologist concludes that the cancer is likely to be primary to the gallbladder/liver area and not another part of the body. That’s good news.

I’ve been thinking a lot about treatments. Still. Of course. I talked with one of my best friends yesterday about how he found out he was HIV+ over the Thanksgiving weekend several years ago. He understood my frustrations of having to wait to get more opinions; wait for treatments to start; wait for the fight of my life to begin. He also understood the suddenly fatalistic thoughts I’ve been struggling with this past week. Last night I had an epiphany: I am not going to die from this. I am going to fight it and I am going to win. I will be healthy one day and I will be labeled as a Survivor. This was just a conclusion I made in my mind; I am still working on the emotional and physical strength this insinuates!

My pain is much better now. I haven’t taken any pain medication (prescription or otherwise) for two days now. I’m trying to clean the main level of our house today but I’m quickly running out of energy. It may be time to stop for now.

Tomorrow is Monday. Honey goes back to work and a dear friend is coming over to visit. The phone calls to doctors will resume and appointments will be made.